Last week was
one of the hardest weeks that I have experienced in a long time. Last Monday
night, I had some life changing family drama that was very hard to deal with. I
was on the verge of and in tears most of Monday and Tuesday. I felt like my
personal life was spinning out of control. Then Tuesday evening, the one place I
go for escape is the Twilight Fandom and see the rumor's about Kristen cheating
on Rob. I refused to believe it at first. I felt like pictures that we saw
Tuesday night could have been photo shopped and we really don't know when these
pictures were taken or the context they were taken. We only know what the
stupid tabloids tell us. I don't put too much credit in their stories and
didn't believe it at all.
Wednesday
morning when I read Kristen's apology. Her apology appears to be so heartfelt.
It brought me to tears. I can only imagine what she is feeling and what lead
her to be in the situation in the first place. My heart hurt so bad for her and Rob too. I
was like "Oh no.......that makes my heart for all of them. So sad!!! I
wanted to believe in the dream and wanted them to make it! " The mom in me just wanted to hold her and let
her cry. She made a bad decision and she is paying big time. I want to believe
that Rob and Kristen love each other.
Then all of
the crazy theories, it's a PR stunt, Robsten never existed, or fill in the
blank...The HATE that people are spewing on Kristen is brutal and ugly! I had to unfollow some people on twitter
because I didn't want to read this in my timeline. I also felt worried for her because what is
this going to do to her career???? I was like...is someone trying to sabotage it or
what?
It really
pisses me off that the headlines are all "Kristen Stewart cheats on
Robert Pattinson" and not "41 year old director cheats on his wife with
young star." Why is she the ONLY bad person in this? She is not a bad person!!!!
I have an
unpopular opinion but from what I know, I feel that Rupert is the one that took
advantage of her. Sure, she may have known what she was doing, but here you have
an older married man that knew better. I don't care that people say she's an
adult. Just because she is 22 doesn't
mean a lot to me. Kristen is a young women that doesn't have the life
experiences and insight to see all of the consequences. I also feel that Rob
and Kirsten may have been in a relationship but they are not married...Rupert
is!!! He is an older married man in a position of power, as her director, over
her. He is the one that I feel should get most of the heat, not Kristen. (Yes I mean heat not hate. I don't feel any
of them should be hated).
I met Rob's friend Sam Bradley, last year and got to chat with him for about 10 minutes. He was such a genuine, sweet and nice guy and I figured Rob would be similar to him. My impression of Rob is that he is a very tender hearted man. I'm sure this is beyond agony for him. If we are wondering the WHY? I'm sure the WHY for him is even more. I hope that whatever truly happened he will get the truth and accept it. I have been worried about him. The mom in me also wants to hug him and make it all better. Most of us have experienced extreme heartache in our lives. We had to deal with it and move on. I know that Rob will be able to move on like the rest of us have.
Rob and
Kristen are the ones that have to choose what to do in their relationship...not
us! If Rob forgives her and they get back together that's great!!!! If they do not
get back together then so be it. They have to make the decision for what is
best for them. Not what we want!
One big fact
is that we may never know what really happened. Do we really have a right to know? I
don't think so. This is a private matter that ended up being displayed worldwide
for people to judge because of who they are.
In a way for
me, personally this may be a wakeup call. I really spend way too
much time escaping in the fandom. I need to make time to enjoy the
"Real" people in my life. I have spent so much time and money over
the last few of years in Twilight related pursuits. I don't regret them at
all, they have been fun, and I have met some amazing people but I need to spread my interests out. As I write this, I
think it may be easier for me to say than actually do...but I will try.
But make no
mistake! I will watch the Rob and Kristen E True Hollywood story that will air 20
years from now to get the whole story! :)
Today at church
we sang the hymn, In Humility, Our Savior. When I sang the lyrics "Fill our
hearts with sweet forgiving; Teach us tolerance and love", it brought
tears to my eyes. I thought about how during this last week I have had my own heart hurt due to personal drama but the fandom has hurt each other as well. There is too much hate in the world! We need to
put some positive vibes of love out in the universe. Please be kind and respect
one another...remember what brought the fandom together in the first place
...the
mutual love of Twilight.
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